Been away. Went to NYC for a couple of days and then working and well-life!

Hi guys,

I have been a very bad blogger lately. I have been doing Twitter a bunch b/c Scandal has its last episode tomorrow night until Feb 27th. And, we have been going to Christmas events in NYC, DC and everywhere. Plus my daughter’s bday party is this weekend and I have a choir concert at church Sunday. So, busy. I am tired and wiped out, but happy. I love Christmastime so much. Not presents really. Just the beautiful trees and lights and events and people that are a tiny bit kinder. It is refreshing and beautiful and amazing. 

We do not go overboard on presents at our place. Kids get the amount of presents for how old they are from Santa. Once they stop believing in Santa, then it does not apply. It is in an effort to keep the reason for the season at the forefront of Christmas. We read Luke from the Bible on Christmas Eve, we participate in the Christmas Eve service and we do a happy bday cake for Jesus on Christmas.

I am not bragging, just mentioning all of this to say that one can still participate in Santa without having the real meaning of Christmas thrown out the window. When people say trees, Santa and the date December 25th are pagan, it annoys me. The reason that date was adopted, because it was to gradually ease pagans into Christianity by using dates that were special to them. Though trees originally had pagan roots, now we use their beauty to glorify God and Christ’s birth. Santa Claus is for kids and I do not think that it is harmless. It is like my daughter thinking that fairies are real or the Disney princesses at Disney are real people. 

If the love of Christ is in your heart, and you know your true intentions and beliefs, it is okay to have fun. But if you feel that the “pagan” ways of yore conflict with your beliefs or keep you from putting Christ first, then by all means refrain. ‘To each his own’, is a short but powerful statement. 

God Bless you all during this Christmas season and enjoy your holiday in whatever way you choose.

Merry Christmas-no happy holidays nonsense from this chick!

Hope everyone had a Thanksgiving to be thankful for…

I am slowly moving out of my funk. I am trying to seek a real job. I am thinking about getting another degree. Silly? Perhaps,but my options are running out. So, back to Thanksgiving. I am so happy that we had a place to go with good food, conversation and laughter. I was completely chill just staying home under the covers and watching Christmas movies with my daughter. We planned to put decorations on the tree because we put it up that Wednesday. 

Anyway, we did not decorate. We spent from 2 to 9 pm with our friends and it brought me back to southern Thanksgiving dinners at my grandmother’s. This is the first year that she was not around because she passed away in March, so I know that dinner down south was so different for my family. Well, my friend did not disappoint. She had collards, yams, ham, turkey, potato salad. It was a soul food throw down!:) She had awesome appetizers and we had red wine with dinner. Nice meal.

Then her hubby went to lie down and the kids went to play and we sat and talked and talked. I really needed that, you know? Sometimes satan wants us to feel isolated. Like we have nowhere to go and no one to listen to us, but it is such a fallacy! Most of us who have lived normal lives and treated others well and been a normal part of society do have people that pray for us and care for us. We may have people that are praying for us that we have no clue about. It could be the service desk worker that you have gotten to know at your favorite store. It could be the older woman who sits alone at church who you make time to talk with. 

I am a lot of things right now-stressed, concerned, wanting CHANGE in my life so desperately. But one thing I am sure of is that I am loved. We are loved. There are bad people in the world. But there are good people that are available to us that many of us do not appreciate or take the time to get to know. Would I have rather been with a husband of my own and my daughter that night? Sure. Do I want to meet a great man to step in and help me raise my child because her father does not? Yes of course. But apparently God is not ready for me to be with someone. Or, God is preparing him to come into my life. Or preparing my heart. The same heart that has anger and pain and resentment buried behind it.

Today I am hopeful. I desire a different life. A better life. Don’t get me wrong, I am thankful for where I live and would not trade my kid for a trillion dollars. I have friends and a full calendar. But I am not where I need to be financially and I long for romantic love. But, today I feel blessed and I awaiting God’s go ahead for me to be in a better place-emotionally, romantically and financially.

I am claiming it! I am going to have my sunny day. My turn at ‘happy days’ and ‘everything is coming up roses’ is where I am headed! If you feel sad or trapped or confused, just seek the Most High in all that you do and you may not get the answer you want, but you will find comfort. You also will have a friend by your side that will never leave you and always love you. I may not have God all figured out, but some of the situations I should have not made it out of alive, let me know that God has to have a purpose for me. I am still here for a reason. For THAT I give a prayer of gratitude and thanksgiving.